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Thursday, December 15, 2011

Day 151 -- Spoke too soon...

Whoo, finally getting around to updating this again! Finals are finally OVER and I am on Winter Break for the next few weeks. The lack of stress feels amazing and I'm just happy to have survived the term.

I have a confession to make though. As the title of this post suggests, I definitely spoke too soon in saying that I'd never fallen off the wagon with this plan. I'm not sure if it was the exaltation of being done with school, leftover sadness from my breakup/reaction to how stressful this term was, but suddenly now that I have free time food has become an issue again! On three separate occasions within the last week I have totally gone off the rails and deliberately bought something from the bakery section in a store and eaten ALL of it...as if not having leftovers to look at will make me feel less guilty.

The sad thing? Most of the time the foods didn't taste as amazing as I expected them to and yet I kept eating it because it was satisfying my desire to eat something. This is definitely a sign to me how much of a mental thing eating can be for me. The taste itself became second to the fact that I knew I was eating something that should comfort me.

I'm completely terrified to weigh and so have been trying to get back to normal and wait awhile to weigh in hopes the number will be a little kinder, but I really need a kick in the pants to quit this cycle of bad eating because it is exactly this kind of behavior that made me so overweight in the first place which is somewhere I never want to go again!

I seem to be an all or nothing girl and moderation is not my strong suit...What are some things all of you have done to get back on track and prepare yourself for the next time temptation strikes?

Hope you all are doing amazingly!

<3

2 comments:

  1. I suffer the same problem... all or nothing!
    And I totally understand the eating carbs (even though they don't taste amazing) to satisfy some desire... I think Atkins explains it, the sugars in carbs quickly go into your blood stream giving you an immediate energy kick then your sugar levels drop quickly and you need more... so the cycle continues.
    Or sometimes I think I just eat sugars/carbs because I know I'm now allowed them and I go overboard as I know its my last chance before I eat protein only the next day. Crazy at it sounds... I try eat as much as possible. Who knows why? It drives me crazy that I do that.
    Keep at Dukan, you've done so well!

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  2. Zealous Girl says it well - once sugar gets into your bloodstream, that's it. You are fighting against the devil. Your glycimic index shoots out of control and you are done for. It would be much better to cheat with something high-fat and not carbohydraty, such as salami ... but I know that's not as appealing as bakery items!

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